Beyond the Membrane

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I feel you there. Beyond the thin and invisible membrane that separates the seen from the unseen world. I feel you so close to me sometimes. Your presence which brings comfort, safety and love. There’s no mistaking it. I know when you step into the room. I’d like very much to think I do. You have been my soul mate, the closest two humans can be to one another, you were to me and I was to you.

I think I may feel you near largely in part because you carry my heart with you there, in the heavens. You’re heart is still with me here too.

Oh how I wish I could reach out and touch you, that you could reach for my hand and bring me into where you are right now. My heart flutters over the thought.

Still I know I’m here, functioning in the seen world. Which means, I must bring my attention back to this place where I am, this place I’m so grateful for and you helped to provide for me. I’m incredibly grateful to be here because it is an expression of you.

I cherish these moments when I feel such a closeness to you again. I don’t know how long they’ll last and whether I’ll experience them for the rest of my life, but I will continue indulge in them, just for a while.

Yes, I must re-ground myself where I am in the here and now. I will and I do. And sometimes that here and now has you in it. My preference is always that you were here. I can't make that happen.  I've tried pretty hard. So, accepting my defeat in that, I realize I can have the best of both worlds as they are today. You and your life and freedom in heaven so gently next to me while I’m here continuing on the earth. My treasure forever. Until we see each other again.

Mi Amor para siempre en el Cielo.